Wednesday, March 19, 2008

are you convicted?

3Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.

romans 15:13 (KJV)

be convicted of your righteousness by the blood of Jesus. as a nobody, we dont have a right to anything. but as a beloved child of the Most High, we have a right to everything.

amazed at His infinite wisdom.

today during biochem lecture, my lecturer showed us a video on the processes happening inside one cell and it really amazed me. probably min huey and cecilia have already watched it haha. but when i was watching it, i was really really amazed at God's infinite wisdom and how He created me.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=TD4VBWNM99w&feature=related
to those who don't understand the video, it's just mainly processes occuring inside the body which looks like monsters but is actually a series of super complex reactions which man will never fully comprehend.

I had a glimpse of revelation of Psalms 139: 14 as it says that " I will praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;" Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well." I'm so glad God made us the way we are and in the image of Christ.

Sometimes people ask me why i like biology, but i think the only reason is because i want to amazed by God when i learn new stuff. haha.

And sometimes the more u learn, you'll come to realise that all problems that occur in the body will lead to something terrible. So today when we learnt about genetic defects in babies, my friend was saying that the more she learns the more scared she becomes and the more she does not want to give birth. haha, but in my heart i was thinking, "i want to have kids le and i want them to be perfectly normal". that is when i have to trust God.

Tuesday, March 18, 2008

edification

Got bored from doing my lab reports at 1.40am and I've decided to blog about a whole new revelation that I've gotten from Daddy God.

Just 2 weeks ago, on a Monday, I was bored of studying for my 38 drugs and decided to open up my bible and flipped through the pages. Suddenly, this verse caught my eye, it was Matthew 15:17-18 (NKJV)

"17 Do you not yet understand that whatever enters the mouth goes into the stomach and is eliminated? 18 But those things which proceed out of the mouth come from the heart, and they defile a man."

I was shocked. Daddy was correcting me. At that point of time the first thought that came to my mind was, "Sharks, this is so obvious that even a simpleton would also know what He is trying to tell me." I got an outright correction from God. Who am I to deny that correction when I know that I myself have been having problems in that area of speaking things which are well, unedifying. After mediating on it, I realised that sometimes, whatever that comes out of our mouths without us thinking is something that is from the heart and most of time, would be truth. Hey, I thought to myself, sometimes, the truth hurts right!? So I thought to myself, alright, maybe this means that I should let my brain filter out whatever that I wanted to say. But that would be super self-effort lah!

The next day,a Tuesday, I continued flipping the bible, I saw another verse that caught my eye. It was 1 Corinthians 11:33.

"Therefore, my brethren, when you come together to eat, wait for one another."

Then, I was like OH NO! again! This means that I am supposed to wait for the rest before I start eating! Sharks. Kanna correction twice in a week, on consecutive days somemore!

Then on service just yesterday, I was kinda feeling really tired and was trying my best not to well, take 2 winks from the sermon. But when I was really awake, the first thing that Pastor shared about was the part whereby he said that if you ever feel like saying something that is going to curse, slander or well, isn't good for the other party, just pray in tongues. I WAS SHOCKED! To me, it's all happening again. The corrections came again.

And today, at around 1am, I was flipping through my bible and I saw this phrase from 1 Corinthians 8:1. This might be out of context as this passage is talking about food offered to idols. But, read on lah....

"...We know that we all have knowledge. Knowledge puffs up, but love edifies."

Then, it all made sense to me. Remember I mentioned earlier on that the truth might come out of the heart and the truth hurts. But if you truly love that person from your heart(be it a fatherly, motherly, sisterly, brotherly or even pacar-ly love), whatever that you say out of your heart would be edifying that person and not hurting that person.

This is all that I needed to do. No need to use self-effort to filter the words that come out of my heart. All I need to do is just change my heart. To let the love of Jesus for the people fill my heart and naturally, love edifies...

Monday, March 17, 2008

the effective, fervent prayer of the righteous avails much

Is anyone among you suffering? Let him pray. Is anyone cheerful? Let him sing psalms. Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer of faith will save the sick, and the Lord will raise him up. And if he has committed sins, he will be forgiven. Confess your trespasses to one another, and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective, fervent prayer of a righteous man avails much.

James 5:13-16

there is one thing you can do, in situations that you are completely helpless about. that thing is not to dwell or worry about it. pray, in the known language or in tongues about your situation. your prayers are effective and will avail much

Friday, March 14, 2008

Ecclesiastes 12

Ecclesiastes 12

- AMP v12 But about going further [than the words given by one Shepherd], my son, be warned. Of making many books there is no end [so do not believe everything you read], and much study is a weariness of the flesh.

- MSG v12 But regarding anything beyond this, dear friend, go easy. There's no end to the publishing of books, and constant study wears you out so you're no good for anything else.

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- AMP v13 All has been heard; the end of the matter is: Fear God [revere and worship Him, knowing that He is] and keep His commandments, for this is the whole of man [the full, original purpose of his creation, the object of God's providence, the root of character, the foundation of all happiness, the adjustment to all inharmonious circumstances and conditions under the sun] and the whole [duty] for every man.

- AMP v14 For God shall bring every work into judgment, with every secret thing, whether it is good or evil.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Ecclesiastes 11

Ecclesiastes 11

- NKJV v4 He who observes the wind will not sow,
And he who regards the clouds will not reap.
v5 As you do not know what is the way of the wind,
Orhow the bones grow in the womb of her who is with child,
So you do not know the works of God who makes everything.
v6 In the morning sow your seed,
And in the evening do not withhold your hand;
For you do not know which will prosper,
Either this or that,
Or whether both alike will be good.

- MSG v7-8 Oh, how sweet the light of day,
And how wonderful to live in the sunshine!
Even if you live a long time, don't take a single day for granted.
Take delight in each light-filled hour,
Remembering that there will also be many dark days
And that most of what comes your way is smoke.

v9 You who are young, make the most of your youth.
Relish your youthful vigor.
Follow the impulses of your heart.
If something looks good to you, pursue it.
But know also that not just anything goes;
You have to answer to God for every last bit of it.

v10 Live footloose and fancy-free—
You won't be young forever.
Youth lasts about as long as smoke.

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I met up with my mentor in my company and he gave me the exact same advice about doing what you like when u are young because you don't have any liabilities (e.g. family, car loans etc) to hold you back. If you don't take a chance, you'll never know. If you go out there and start your own company, you would probably be a millionaire in 3 years, but if you stay in the company for 8 years, you'll only just be an assistant manager.

I just remembered one more thing about the Servers' Appreciation Night. Pastor also said very briefly during Servers' Appreciation Night that the gifts that God gives you might lead you out of your comfort zone, to do things you never thought possible for the glory of Jesus.

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

Why would anyone want to serve in church?

Isn't it interesting that for my daily devotion yesterday, I shared about the quote that stuck with me from the movie, Back to the Future?

Because Pastor Benjamin showed us snippets of the movie, Man of Honour, during Servers' Appreciation Night yesterday. And what struck me was how this guy went against all physical / mental odds even against calamity/persecution/sabotage by his own fellow navy officers to succeed as a Navy Diver of the US Navy.

Especially the part where he stayed underwater for 9 hours to pass the Navy Diver's Test after being sabotaged by his officers, I thought that kinda reminded me of myself while I was doing the training circuit during Adventure Camp, except that he didn't puke his guts out in the end.

During prayer, Pastor also had a vision that God was handing out golden keys to unlock all the grace gifts in us, to enlarge us in our serving.

As I stood there looking at the list of "long service award" servers in church, I couldn't help but feel so humbled. A revelation sorta dawned on me. These people have actually dedicated so much of their lives to serving God and His people. Now you know for sure how to differentiate a true calling and a spur-of-the-moment impulse.

As they flashed the past photos of these "long service award" servers in church, who could've thought these people would turn out to be such amazing vessels used by Jesus to minister to His people? I couldn't even recognise Pastor Daniel. And Pastor Benjamin's photo, he looked nothing like what he is today. He looked, to be honest, super nerdy and quite loser. I would never even have been his friend. HAHA Who would've believed that he would turn out to be a pastor/entrepreneur?

I believe the best in people, that everyone has a sincere heart to serve the Lord. But many simply don't follow through - many lack faithfulness. I'm not talking about serving with a spirit of excellence, that everything you do must have over-and-exceedingly-above outstanding results that will wow your leaders. I'm talking about simply the bare minimum of getting the job done, being there when your leaders need you, and holding on til the end.

Before you jump on me and accuse me of having a "Law & Works Mentality" towards serving, allow me to provide a simple analogy.

When you go to work, your company pays you a salary. Because of that, you get the job done (read: it doesn't mean you put in your best). Why? Because if you don't get the minimum done, you get fired. Period.

Now let's talk about serving. Is there a contract/bond for you to sign before you serve? No. Do you get paid a salary when you serve? No. Can you simply call it quits anytime once you don't feel like serving? Yes. Can your leaders do anything about it? No.

So if you need to sign a contract to serve, and the church pays you a salary for your serving, will your attitude towards serving change?

If it does, then you are exactly under a "Law & Works Mentality".

Today we see some people serving, and giving up after a while due to various unacceptable reasons (which i shan't elaborate). Today we see people serving, but they lack commitment and do not give weight/prority to their serving. Today we see people serving, but their over-zealous enthusiasm fizzles out after a few weeks or so and they jump to the next ministry that they find exciting. Today we see people serving, but they are expecting fast promotions to leadership and honour. [I'm talking to myself here.]

It's no wonder that Pastor has preached before that leaders should never feel embarrassed when they assign stuff for their servers to do. Why should serving have any less priority than your full-time job or school work? Also, Lynn always shares with the Ambassadors/Befrienders that the winner is someone who hangs on til the end to see his/her breakthrough.

What I'm trying to say is this: regardless of your caliber, skills, status etc, when you have the right heart and attitude towards serving, when you avail yourself to be used and you stay faithful to what God has placed in your hands, that is when God will be able to use you for His glory.

As for me, I realised that how far I had to go, after seeing the list of "long service award" servers. I realised what a novice I was, how wet behind the ears I was, and I believe my perspectives on serving were put into place almost instantly. I mean, my company also has long service awards for employees who have worked in the company for 10, 20, 30 and even 40 years (literally their whole lives), but it's nothing like this. I don't really know how else to describe it; it's something that I caught in my spirit.

I'm glad this happened to me, because I believe God wants to show me something with regards to the dreams and the desires that He has placed in my heart for my future.

And I think this is one of the golden keys that many servers have yet to unlock.

a people undeserving

was expecting a sermon during servers night yesterday, but it didn't happen. but Daddy never shortchanges us, does He.

pastor benjamin shared a little here and there throughout the service/programme, and i don't know why selene knows but something pastor said became a rhema for me to meditate on for quite a while, especially during this trying period.

"it's not what you have, but what you don't have that qualifies you for everything He has."

i know this is not new but that is the thing about the Word. this semester God must have something wonderful in store for me, or else i wouldn't be attacked in this. been really into schoolwork these days, and undeniably i have been whining to God, "God, i need time leh.", "argh God what is this? got so many things to do already!!!", "i need You Lord."

but Jesus is ever so full of grace. He says, "your very disqualification is qualifies you for My blessings." nevermind the apparent lack of time, energy, strength; when i cannot, God can. i mean, His hands are greater than mine aren't they? i know He has provided, and the Word that goes forth shall not return void.

i thank God He is faithful. whatever that you need, it's already given to you, paid by Jesus in full. do you believe it?

Ecclesiastes 10

Ecclesiastes 10

- MSG v19 Laughter and bread go together,
And wine gives sparkle to life—
But it's money that makes the world go around.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Ecclesiastes 9

Ecclesiastes 9

- MSG v7 Seize life! Eat bread with gusto,
Drink wine with a robust heart.
Oh yes—God takes pleasure in your pleasure!

- MSG v9-10 ... Each day is God's gift. It's all you get in exchange
For the hard work of staying alive.
Make the most of each one!
Whatever turns up, grab it and do it. And heartily!
This is your last and only chance at it...

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If you remember, I shared during one of our first CGs about Back To The Future, about one scene that always stayed with me throughout my younger years - that was when Doc Emmett Brown told Marty & Jennifer that "Your future's not been written yet; no one's has. Your future is whatever you make of it, so make it a good one, both of you!"

what are you seeing?

So when the woman saw that the tree was good for food, that it was pleasant to the eyes, and a tree desirable to make one wise, she took of its fruit and ate.

Genesis 3:6

was eve lacking for food in the garden of eden? surely, a whole garden for 2 people was more than enough
was eve lacking for things pleasant to the eyes? surely, God created a perfect world of many things that were pleasant to the eyes.
was eve lacking in wisdom? surely walking with God/wisdom personified everyday gave her wisdom

what are you seeing in your life? all the lack or all what God has placed in your life?

Monday, March 10, 2008

Ecclesiastes 8

Ecclesiastes 8

- MSG v1 There's nothing better than being wise, Knowing how to interpret the meaning of life.
Wisdom puts light in the eyes,
And gives gentleness to words and manners.

<in the context of obeying your boss>
- MSG v2-5 Do what your king commands; you gave a sacred oath of obedience. Don't worryingly second-guess your orders or try to back out when the task is unpleasant. You're serving his pleasure, not yours. The king has the last word. Who dares say to him, "What are you doing?" Carrying out orders won't hurt you a bit; the wise person obeys promptly and accurately.

- MSG v12-13 Even though a person sins and gets by with it hundreds of times throughout a long life, I'm still convinced that the good life is reserved for the person who fears God, who lives reverently in his presence, and that the evil person will not experience a "good" life. No matter how many days he lives, they'll all be as flat and colorless as a shadow—because he doesn't fear God.

- MSG v14 Here's something that happens all the time and makes no sense at all: Good people get what's coming to the wicked, and bad people get what's coming to the good. I tell you, this makes no sense. It's smoke.

- MSG v15 So, I'm all for just going ahead and having a good time—the best possible. The only earthly good men and women can look forward to is to eat and drink well and have a good time—compensation for the struggle for survival these few years God gives us on earth.